Jan 17, 2020
I've been missing Ram Dass because he went home 2019-12-23.
Om namo Ram Dass.
Jan 14, 2020
I stopped watching US news because it's too painful. The Bhagavad Gita
speaks about duty. When the US attacked Iran on Jan 3, I was shaken.
On Jan 6, I thought I'd commit myself to a call of justice and duty.
I didn't think it would be this hard. (I keep making rambling mistakes.)
But Jan 6 is a light year away now. Was I deluded on Jan 6? There can
be no call to duty if there's only chaos in US politics. Are the people
of America are asleep?
I remember my 5 grade teacher Sister Mary Francis Inez getting
us to say a prayer whenever an ambulance passed by our grade school in
Saint Louis, Missouri. So I said a prayer for Iran. Why! Because I
don't like the big guy picking on the little guy.
This is one is for Iran (and our country too, I suppose).
Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the
fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of death.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the
Jan 12, 2020
Iran Crisis Podcast
Ralph Nader Radio Hour
Jan 9, 2020
The Dance of the Angels
artist: Fra Angelico
Since Jan 3 when general Soleimani was killed, I hardly slept. I felt
as if the satanic demons were let loose in our country. But I'm starting
to understand what happened, I think.
First, the attack on general Soleimani was ordered by our President
Trump. Only the president could have ordered this attack. Why?
Because he's got something to hide. His actions throughout the
past year shows it. He acts as if he does have something to
hide because he's constantly trying to reassure us how good he is.
He wouldn't have to do this if he had a clear conscious.
I feel lots of sympathy for our President. He suffered alot trying
to battle our corrupt government. I've worked in large bureaucracies
most of my career, and saw how lonely it can be at the top level,
especially if you're fighting the establishment.
I'm also glad Congress passed the war powers resolution. Our
Constitution intended that only Congress declare war. Pretty
smart of the founding fathers.
While walking with my dog at our local park, I saw fathers teaching
their sons to play baseball. I thought as long as there are fathers
and sons who love baseball, we're all okay. We don't need a war.
And maybe our troops can come home from the Middle East. It's about time.
Jan 6, 2020
Our Government Action in Iran is Wrong
When I heard our government killed Iran's general Soleimani, my heart
sank. First, I started thinking I'll crawl in my hole, and forget
this mess. But it's on the news.
During the second Gulf war when the US attacked Iraq in 2003, I worked
in a US intelligence center. One of the problems we thought about was
how could we minimize the threat of IEDs on our troops in Baghdad.
Of course we could find no real answer. Personally I remember thinking,
"Just get the hell out of there!" The IEDs, Improvised Explosive Devices,
I can envision what's coming next. The US military will be using
more drones to maintain control or "dominance" in strategic areas.
No need to endanger our troops. But what about the Iranians.
They're human beings. If you can't understand this, then we in
the US are really all doomed.
The Gulf war was brutal. Imagine the brutality. The Brutality.
The BRUTALITY. I love the US. But why this brutality? You've
got to be more compassionate. But that's not enough is it?
You've got to take action. I wonder what I'm going to do. I
hope I can make my fathers, my ancestors, proud. I hope I can
listen to their call.
Jan 2, 2020
2019 - A Year of Doubts
In 2019, I realized past mistakes in thinking I made years ago.
I wonder if I'm putting too much blind faith in picking certain
computer algorithms to model the neuron. How dumb is that!
I'm building software models on unsound foundations and I still
need to think things through ... that the models are too complex.
Dec 29, 2019
Beauty to a Machine
I wrote a little article on the
beauty of Zen Gardens, and how the
asethetics are related to machine interpretation. The neural nets
I've worked on can recognize static faces, but cannot recognize a man
walking as a temporal event. I still don't know of any "grammar"
to process temporal sequences for two or three dimensional objects.
I'm sure some people have rewriting rules or production systems
to do this. :-).
Dec 19, 2019
More Lisp - can't get enough!
New mxlisp-0.8i download is
The mxlisp webpage is
Sep 3, 2019
The Warming of the Pacific Ocean
I was shocked when I heard that the water temperature of the
ocean near my home was 85 F or 30 C. That's a significant
rise from the average of about 80 F. This rise in temperature
is affecting the health of ocean wild life. The temperature
of the world's ocean has been relatively constant for
a hundred of years.
I always took comfort in the thought that the oceans would
protect us from heat by absorbing termal energy. But the
oceans are warming at an alarming rate.
The great Hawaiian god of the sea, Kanaloa, comforts the psyche.
Kanaloa delivers health as well as mental peace. When I go the
sea now, I can feel the heart break and pain in Kanaloa.
The Hawaiian oceans are beautiful beyond words.
Sep 1, 2019
Climate Change in the Earth's Most Isolated Landmassd
This was a scorching summer!
Being right in the middle of the Pacific Ocean, Hawaii is the most
isolated land and population mass in the world. Yet it still faces a
serious threat to its living standard from global warming.
When our family first moved to Kahaluu on Oahu, we used a heater to
warm our house in winter. Today I use an air conditioner at night to cool
my room so I can sleep. I never imagined global warming would be so
My heart breaks for the people in India who suffer through intense
heat waves. Anybody, including our top political leaders in our
country, who ignore the serious threat of climate change to our
existence should be spend a few hours in the Indian heat. You'd
know what I mean if you travelled in southeast asian countries in
the summer. That heat would make me seriously ill. It was a
And as an aside, I also wonder why our country thinks building a
military space force is good when climate change is our primary threat?
July 19, 2019
mLisp bug fix release 0.5d
July 18, 2019
mLisp release 0.5c
July 17, 2019
mLisp release 0.5b
Xlisp-2.0 contains many features not in xlisp-1.7 or mlisp. Xlisp-2.0 is
a dual (or "lisp 2") namespace lisp, whereas, xlisp-1.7 uses single
namespace for both variable and function names. I prefer the
simplicity of xlisp-1.7. I'm in the process of moving the features
of xlisp-2 to mlisp. You can find my modified version of xlisp-2
in the arc directory. I want to include named-let, promises and
escape continuations in mlisp by taking code from xlisp-2 and xlisp-3
following the footsteps of David Betz.
April 16, 2019
The Most Important Journalist in the World
from video by Gordan Dimmack
Gordan Dimmack covered Lee Stranahan's speech supporting Julian Assange.
This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-d7Jt9CHww
Jan 2, 2019
uLisp release 0.8c
This release adds a cooperative thread extension facility.
The ulisp-0.8c can be downloaded
Dec 18, 2018
The Dance of the Angels
artist: Fra Angelico
We've undergoing a revolution in the development of parallel software.
I'm really impressed by the speed at which small multi-core computers
using recently developed parallel software can solve puzzles orders of
magnitude faster then they could just a couple of years ago. I'm pretty
certain that now no human being can beat a special purpose computer
designed to play chess. Chess master Gary Kasparov was beaten by a
computer called Deep Blue in 1997, 21 years ago.
I can just feel what's coming next ... what Ray Kurzweil called "The Age
of Intelligent Machines." I believe we humans as a society will lose at
playing the intelligence game against intelligent machines just like
grandmaster Kasparov lost to Deep Blue. Amazing?! What does this say
about the value of intelligence in the future?
We, as human beings, have a lot more to learn about our reason for
existence. We have a lesson to learn from our humanity embedded in the
psyche or mythology of the "deep past". The threat to humanity is not
the machines, but the human psyche in those people who are insensitive to
each other. Those people who drown out their own humanity because of
their innate lack of human empathy or compasion. It has all being written
before in the ancient scriptures in various cultures.
The lesson in this for me is that which comes from the ancient Archons
of western mythology. As cycles repeat, the Archons of the past, who will
appear again in the future, are those people, human beings, who manipulate
the machines of the future for their own ends. Archons are the future human
beings who lack empathy. The Archons in mythology were the fallen angels
cast out of paradise which was the Earth. I think, by studying the
"deep past" we can be optimistic about the future. But remember that
the tale of the Archons were meant to be taken as a lesson for us now.
Dec 14, 2018
uLisp 0.8b Maintenance
This release adds the syntactic extension facility, expand-syntax.
Aug 23, 2018
Lee Stranahan: Red Alert
"Red Alert: How you can end the witch hunt."
This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLfLszi6hME
Aug 9, 2018
The Heart and Alternative Realities
Over a period of years, I tried to read everything Hermann Hesse and
Philip Dick published. I've read Hesse's "Narcissus and Goldmoud" and
Philip Dick's "Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep" at least twice.
The world created in these novels had me totally absorded when I read them.
Over many years, I've wondered why I could never understand Hesse's
"Magister Ludi", or Philip Dick's "Exegesis". It's said that these works,
written during the late careers of these authors, were a synopsis of their
I think Hesse, who was pure genius in producing Siddhartha, really
struggled to find an intellectual or rational basis for human ideals
in writing Magister Ludi. And Philip Dick's lengthy work, Exegesis,
was a monumental battle to explain and understand what he perceived
Over the years, I've wondered if I myself could find some
reasonable worldview which would be fullfiling, and hopefully
inspirational. For sure, what is inspirational is that these
authors kept trying to find an explanation to their life's study.
Their earlier works were brilliant artistic creations which for me
had a basis for closure. Their last works, however, were open ended.
Somehow, and I still don't understand clearly myself, is that their
later works feels closer to my heart. Is it because I like some
mystery to a great search .... a quest? It is because an absolute,
final answer would be against our instinct to hope? Or is it because
they accepted fully their humanity or human condition to try?
Jul 24, 2018
The video link below was downloaded from You-Tube. It's posted just in
the case you missed it.
This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-d7Jt9CHww
Revised Jul 23, 2018
Jul 22, 2018
Computer Security: Just My 2-Bits
on a Sensitive Matter
My impression after reading the 29 page DOJ-Indictment of the 12 Russian
GRU officers signed by Robert Mueller, dated July 13, 2018, is its
opacity because it is very hard to know what happened after a security
breach. This indictment does not give definitive proof that "DCLeaks" or
"Gucifier 2.0" were the criminals who penetrated the DNC servers. In my
opinion, catching a good "hacker" after the crime was committed is unlikely.
You would have to get a detailed record or log of the network activity
tracing the routes of the source and targeted DNC server at the time the
crime was being committed.
My thoughts and feelings, as I was reading the DOJ-Indictment, was that
this type of violation should never have happened if mindful, simple
computer security procedures were followed. The real failure, and fault
for these security breaches should rest on those who managed or
administered the DNC servers. The reason for this, in my opinion,
is the enormous complexity or impossibility of determining what occurred
once the computers were penetrated. Actually, from my experience using
computers, it is easy to erase or modify self-logging mechanisms on a
computer once you have access to it.
Regardless of the political reasons justifying the production of this
DOJ-Indictment, it's important from a computer security perspective
to adjudicate this indictment in court. Both the USA and Russia would
benefit from studying the detailed processes underlying computer
security for international law enforcement. For example, the use
of "bitcoin" or crypto-currencies for exchanging money between countries
as detailed in "COUNT TEN" of the DOJ-Indictment is essential for
economic trust between foreign banks. Trust between US and Russia
will improve if US and Russian computer security forces work cooperatively
together in the future.
Jul 9, 2018
Change to mLisp
I'm replacing the mLisp derived from David Betz's xscheme-0.28 to that
derived from xlisp-1.7. It's easier to understand the C-code without
the bytecode compiler which xlisp-1.7 does not have. I like the
elegant simplicity of xlisp-1.7.
Apologize for not creating a compiler for mLisp.
Mar 17, 2017
"We were brothers in the war. It was necessary then."
I've found my best and long-lasting friends within the realm of mortal
danger. Sometimes, hardship brings out the most noble behavior in some
people. Hardship makes us compassionate and tolerant. What's really
interesting about this to me is how comradeship born out of necessity,
makes us love each other in an unquestioning way. To question is being
critical and disloyal.
However, an enlightened person might understand that being critical of
one another in a time of survival hardship is not equivalent to a lack
of love. But it can seem this way to most people. We all need to be
loved so much.
Ironically, in a group where I need to be accepted, I fail many times to
be as aware as I can about what it means to really love each other.
Dec 23, 2016
My View of Software Development
The software world is developing at an exponential rate. This comes with
an exponential increase in complexity. I've never had any formal training
in computer software except my self-study in Lisp. I started by working
on operating system software way back in the days when the DEC macro-11
was popular. This was before the C language was invented in the mid 1970's.
So when I started using the C language in 1979, I found I was able to
write software within a few hours of reading the "white" K&R
(Kernighan and Ritchie) C-book. C is in essence a simple language.
Now, I think it's really changed. I can't imagine writing useful programs
in Rust on the first day of learning it. And I've written some Ruby
programs before. I think it would take me a year to learn Rust to a
sufficient level to write useful programs. I think that's because Rust
does so much optimizations.
Lisp, unlike C, is a high-level language, and hence can take a while to
learn well too.
What's really interesting about my journey through using software languages
is how different people adapt to learning the language. For me, I use
software that I intuitively like. That's really subjective. And every
programmer has his or her views on a language which affects his efficiency
in using the language. How the syntax and structure of the computer
language sinks into the inner psyche of a programmer is essential in
how the programmer produces his software, or expresses his ideas through
the software language.
In a large programming effort requiring a team, the individual, expressive
programmer must conform to a standard set of production requirements which
includes his choice of a language. Most of the time this comes down to how
you can socialize with other programmers. However. if you don't like the
language, you're not going to do your best work ... your best work meaning
you spent every waking minute which is directed to your work thinking about
the problems in the software language. And this is why large programming
teams are so inefficient. They don't have the freedom to express themselves.
This is sort of analogous to all disciplines in general.
Nov 9, 2016
A New Day
I'm really proud of our country for the selection of our new president.
And we should also be grateful to the rebel, Julian Assange, who made
this selection possible. Julian Assange has been isolated in the Equadorian
Embassey in London for 4 years now. I hope he can be free soon
for he is a genuine patriot in the Thomas Jeffersonian sense who wrote
years ago, "Rebellion to tyrants is obedience to God."
Oct 23, 2016
A Clear and Present Danger
"But I do ask every publisher, every editor, and every newsman
in the nation to reexamine his own standards, and to recognize
the nature of our country's peril."
"In time of 'clear and present danger,' the courts have held that
even the priviledged rights of the First Amendment must yeild to the
public's need for national security. Today no war has been declared;
and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in
the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack. Those
who make themselves our enemy are advancing around the globe. The
survival of our friends is in danger. And yet no war has been
declared, no borders have been crossed by marching troops, no
missiles have been fired. If the press is awaiting a declaration
of war before it imposes the self-discipline of combat conditions,
then I can only say that no war ever posed a greater threat to our
"If you are awaiting a finding of 'clear and present danger,' then I
can only say that the danger has never been more clear and its
presence has never been more imminent."
--- excerpt from John F. Kennedy's "Secret Societies" speech
Oct 23, 2016
Trust and Freedom
Politics in America has distorted the current moral reality of its
citizens. Misdirected use of finanical power has greatly weaken
the economic and political state of our country. We are currently
headed for war with Russia because of the unstable state or condition
in our economy, and the immoral character of our top leaders
in the Whitehouse.
FBI directory Comey failed to uphold justice in prosecuting Hillary
Clinton's security violations. The consequence may lead to a moral
collapse of our intelligence agencies. I'm sure we're very proud
of the CIA. But I'm beginning to the see the day when we could possibly
equate the work of the CIA with what the KGB did in the 1950's.
Overt secrecy in government is weakness. As politically powerful as
the KGB was made to be in the 1950's, the Soviet Union collapsed 30 years
later. If we continue to fail in upholding justice, our government will
collapse within the next generation.
Our strength in any endeavor depends on trust. Now, it's critical that
all parts of our US state and federal agencies uphold justice to the
highest degree possible. This is done by all the individuals in these
agencies being as open and honest as they can be ... everyday, every minute.
The price of Freedom is not free.
Oct 14, 2016
Our Country is in Serious Trouble
It's hard to believe this news item appeared today.
Vice President Joe Biden told "Meet the Press" moderator Chuck Todd
on Friday that "we're sending a message" to Putin and that
"it will be at the time of our choosing, and under the circumstances
that will have the greatest impact." When asked if the American public
will know a message was sent, the vice president replied, "Hope not."
The statement above is in relation to a possible CIA cyber strike
against Russia in retaliation for "alleged" Russian interference in
the American presidential election.
It's heartbreaking to see how insane the politicians (and gravelling
underlings surrounding them) in the Whitehouse have become. What's
happening to the CIA! They should know better as the CIA have some of
the best firewall technology and experts in the universe. They should
defend justice in a way they are most able ... by, in this case, helping
to protect US computer systems. Not in an insanely offensive way
against a sovereign foreign country. It really saddens me to think the
CIA with its many good people would be called upon to do so much evil.
Is our country that weak? Wake up!
I've always turned away from commenting on politics, but now face this
haunting quote: "... first they came for my friends and I did not speak ..."
July 2, 2016
... (the spiritual teachers of the Upanishads) showed to their pupils that
the light of Knowledge was meant only to make "darkness visible". With
the awareness of "darkness made visible", through the processes of
knowledge, these pupils were inspired to undertake the adventurous
journey into the land of the Unknown where alone Wisdom can be discovered.
This journey has to be unaided, for no teacher can lead a pupil into
the realms of the Unknown. The journey to the Unknown is a flight of the
alone to the Alone.
by Rohit Mehta, Call of the Upanishads
Motilal Banarsidass Publishers, Delhi, 1970
I had a vivid dream recently where I was visiting a Tibetan monastary in
Nepal. These kinds of dreams for me have a really profound mystical feeling.
It usually involves viewing the landscape I'm visiting from the sky where
I'm flying. In this dream I felt extreme fear of the forest surrounding
the monastary. I had a real sense of my own pending death. Then a white
cloud embraced me, and gently dropped me back on my own bed.
I know the fear I felt in this dream is from my past experiences
travelling in strange places. When I travel alone I go to the extreme
in embracing the unknown. I don't plan anything. I just try to let
things happen on their own. But this kind of travelling invokes a lot of
fear in me. It's taken years for me to start thinking about another
In my next journey, I'd like to keep asking the question, "What kind of
consciousness or awareness is there outside of the brain?" This question
takes on different aspects depending on what kind of living life forms
on earth I include which have a functioning nervous system. I know I have to
try to find answers by including all life forms, but getting interpretations
from human beings. I know this sounds really strange, but that's the best
way I know how to put it. I'm at the edge of my limitations ... on a journey
in which I meet myself at the end.
But for now, like the past few months, I spend lots of my time doing
landscape gardening. The sunrise is my favorite time of day.
Jan 16, 2016
The Song of Our Lord
I spent much of last year trying to resolve a paradox. It is sort
of amusing how what I think is paradoxical traps me. Maybe some
alien being would strug, thinking what mis-directed energy
Actually, I guess this would not be paradoxical to a machine. Okay,
maybe now I can explain it.
Years ago, I would never have dreamt of encountering the struggle
with the concept of "non-dualism" I'm undergoing now. Spinoza smile
on me. I would have neatly compartmented away my uneasy sense of
the separateness of mechanistic forces and human psychic forces.
I think most "modern western thinkers" separate the physical and
spiritual. For some reason, it's not in my nature to do so.
Maybe it's my previous experience with eastern mysticism. Some
really intensive study on Hindu and Buddhist mysticism years ago
has deeply shaped my psyche. I still read the stuff of Hindu sages,
especially Swami Sivananda.
In the Hindu epic, the Bhagavad Gita (the Song of Our Lord), the
embodiment of love, Lord Krishna extolls the classical Vedic teachings
on the value of self-realization through love. The Gita is not
a "western" text reflecting linear thinking. The Gita are poems or
songs about living a practical life which is allegorical with much
symbolism and metaphors necessarily consistent only with respect to
the human psyche. Lord Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita is the god of
love. Like the Upanishads, the Gita usually places me in wonderment.
On these two texts each day I meditate.
I've always sense an enormous pull ... a mystical attraction to a
kind of spiritual reality prominant in far eastern lands, especially
in the Hindu kind of psyche.
The genius of human psyche, Karl Jung, wrote about the synchronous
relationship between causal events in dreams. Dreams are more
allegorical where the mind works overtime on symbolism. The
psyche is not the prisoner of logic and strict causality. As in
love, the psyche gets directly down to the business of really
defining the self. Karl Jung describes a case of "exaggerated
rationalism" or logic with respect to one of his patients
who couldn't continue treatment until she could get pass her
deductive thoughts. Jung basis his ideas about the fundamentals of
dreams on synchronicity, and writes about this in his encounter with
the golden scarab.
Swami Sivananda in the classical Vedic tradition says "Mind precedes
Matter, ...". I wonder if I'll ever get to that place Swami Sivananda
felt and knew as that is really a similar side of mechanistic non-duality.
A long time ago, a Shingon buddhist monk and I sat alone. He talked
about a universal love that does not differentiate human separateness.
I thought how is it possible for me to know this love. At that time,
I had no clue how this was possible. It was not something inside of me.
But nowadays, I think I sometimes sense it. You see, you cannot understand
this love with your mind. You can only feel it in your heart. It might
have come to me through years of simple experience. The scriptures say
you're more likely to find this blessing if you try to purify yourself
Following strict non-duality is too limiting ... too mechanical. It
constricts your growth. I know or understand, that on one level, the
world is purely mechanistic. But that's not the limit of my universe.
"I am the Self, dwelling in the heart of all beings." -- Lord Krishna,
The Bhagavad Gita