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Jan 17, 2020

Ram Dass

I've been missing Ram Dass because he went home 2019-12-23.
Om namo Ram Dass.

Jan 14, 2020

A Prayer

I stopped watching US news because it's too painful. The Bhagavad Gita speaks about duty. When the US attacked Iran on Jan 3, I was shaken. On Jan 6, I thought I'd commit myself to a call of justice and duty. I didn't think it would be this hard. (I keep making rambling mistakes.) But Jan 6 is a light year away now. Was I deluded on Jan 6? There can be no call to duty if there's only chaos in US politics. Are the people of America are asleep?

I remember my 5 grade teacher Sister Mary Francis Inez getting us to say a prayer whenever an ambulance passed by our grade school in Saint Louis, Missouri. So I said a prayer for Iran. Why! Because I don't like the big guy picking on the little guy.

This is one is for Iran (and our country too, I suppose).

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of death. Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.

Jan 12, 2020

Iran Crisis Podcast

        Ralph Nader Radio Hour

Jan 9, 2020

The Dance of the Angels

artist: Fra Angelico

Since Jan 3 when general Soleimani was killed, I hardly slept. I felt as if the satanic demons were let loose in our country. But I'm starting to understand what happened, I think.

First, the attack on general Soleimani was ordered by our President Trump. Only the president could have ordered this attack. Why? Because he's got something to hide. His actions throughout the past year shows it. He acts as if he does have something to hide because he's constantly trying to reassure us how good he is. He wouldn't have to do this if he had a clear conscious.

I feel lots of sympathy for our President. He suffered alot trying to battle our corrupt government. I've worked in large bureaucracies most of my career, and saw how lonely it can be at the top level, especially if you're fighting the establishment.

I'm also glad Congress passed the war powers resolution. Our Constitution intended that only Congress declare war. Pretty smart of the founding fathers.

While walking with my dog at our local park, I saw fathers teaching their sons to play baseball. I thought as long as there are fathers and sons who love baseball, we're all okay. We don't need a war. And maybe our troops can come home from the Middle East. It's about time.

Jan 6, 2020

Our Government Action in Iran is Wrong

When I heard our government killed Iran's general Soleimani, my heart sank. First, I started thinking I'll crawl in my hole, and forget this mess. But it's on the news.

During the second Gulf war when the US attacked Iraq in 2003, I worked in a US intelligence center. One of the problems we thought about was how could we minimize the threat of IEDs on our troops in Baghdad. Of course we could find no real answer. Personally I remember thinking, "Just get the hell out of there!" The IEDs, Improvised Explosive Devices, were horrific.

I can envision what's coming next. The US military will be using more drones to maintain control or "dominance" in strategic areas. No need to endanger our troops. But what about the Iranians. They're human beings. If you can't understand this, then we in the US are really all doomed.

The Gulf war was brutal. Imagine the brutality. The Brutality. The BRUTALITY. I love the US. But why this brutality? You've got to be more compassionate. But that's not enough is it? You've got to take action. I wonder what I'm going to do. I hope I can make my fathers, my ancestors, proud. I hope I can listen to their call.

Jan 2, 2020

2019 - A Year of Doubts

In 2019, I realized past mistakes in thinking I made years ago. I wonder if I'm putting too much blind faith in picking certain computer algorithms to model the neuron. How dumb is that! I'm building software models on unsound foundations and I still need to think things through ... that the models are too complex.

Oh well!

Dec 29, 2019

Beauty to a Machine

I wrote a little article on the beauty of Zen Gardens, and how the asethetics are related to machine interpretation. The neural nets I've worked on can recognize static faces, but cannot recognize a man walking as a temporal event. I still don't know of any "grammar" to process temporal sequences for two or three dimensional objects. I'm sure some people have rewriting rules or production systems to do this. :-).

Dec 19, 2019

More Lisp - can't get enough!

New mxlisp-0.8i download is here.
The mxlisp webpage is here.

Sep 3, 2019

The Warming of the Pacific Ocean

I was shocked when I heard that the water temperature of the ocean near my home was 85 F or 30 C. That's a significant rise from the average of about 80 F. This rise in temperature is affecting the health of ocean wild life. The temperature of the world's ocean has been relatively constant for a hundred of years.

I always took comfort in the thought that the oceans would protect us from heat by absorbing termal energy. But the oceans are warming at an alarming rate.

The great Hawaiian god of the sea, Kanaloa, comforts the psyche. Kanaloa delivers health as well as mental peace. When I go the sea now, I can feel the heart break and pain in Kanaloa.

The Hawaiian oceans are beautiful beyond words.

Sep 1, 2019

Climate Change in the Earth's Most Isolated Landmassd

This was a scorching summer!

Being right in the middle of the Pacific Ocean, Hawaii is the most isolated land and population mass in the world. Yet it still faces a serious threat to its living standard from global warming.

When our family first moved to Kahaluu on Oahu, we used a heater to warm our house in winter. Today I use an air conditioner at night to cool my room so I can sleep. I never imagined global warming would be so real.

My heart breaks for the people in India who suffer through intense heat waves. Anybody, including our top political leaders in our country, who ignore the serious threat of climate change to our existence should be spend a few hours in the Indian heat. You'd know what I mean if you travelled in southeast asian countries in the summer. That heat would make me seriously ill. It was a nightmare.

And as an aside, I also wonder why our country thinks building a military space force is good when climate change is our primary threat?

July 19, 2019

mLisp bug fix release 0.5d

July 18, 2019

mLisp release 0.5c

July 17, 2019

mLisp release 0.5b

Xlisp-2.0 contains many features not in xlisp-1.7 or mlisp. Xlisp-2.0 is a dual (or "lisp 2") namespace lisp, whereas, xlisp-1.7 uses single namespace for both variable and function names. I prefer the simplicity of xlisp-1.7. I'm in the process of moving the features of xlisp-2 to mlisp. You can find my modified version of xlisp-2 in the arc directory. I want to include named-let, promises and escape continuations in mlisp by taking code from xlisp-2 and xlisp-3 following the footsteps of David Betz.

April 16, 2019

The Most Important Journalist in the World

from video by Gordan Dimmack

Gordan Dimmack covered Lee Stranahan's speech supporting Julian Assange. This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-d7Jt9CHww

Jan 2, 2019

uLisp release 0.8c

This release adds a cooperative thread extension facility.
The ulisp-0.8c can be downloaded here.

Dec 18, 2018

The Dance of the Angels

artist: Fra Angelico

We've undergoing a revolution in the development of parallel software. I'm really impressed by the speed at which small multi-core computers using recently developed parallel software can solve puzzles orders of magnitude faster then they could just a couple of years ago. I'm pretty certain that now no human being can beat a special purpose computer designed to play chess. Chess master Gary Kasparov was beaten by a computer called Deep Blue in 1997, 21 years ago.

I can just feel what's coming next ... what Ray Kurzweil called "The Age of Intelligent Machines." I believe we humans as a society will lose at playing the intelligence game against intelligent machines just like grandmaster Kasparov lost to Deep Blue. Amazing?! What does this say about the value of intelligence in the future?

We, as human beings, have a lot more to learn about our reason for existence. We have a lesson to learn from our humanity embedded in the psyche or mythology of the "deep past". The threat to humanity is not the machines, but the human psyche in those people who are insensitive to each other. Those people who drown out their own humanity because of their innate lack of human empathy or compasion. It has all being written before in the ancient scriptures in various cultures.

The lesson in this for me is that which comes from the ancient Archons of western mythology. As cycles repeat, the Archons of the past, who will appear again in the future, are those people, human beings, who manipulate the machines of the future for their own ends. Archons are the future human beings who lack empathy. The Archons in mythology were the fallen angels cast out of paradise which was the Earth. I think, by studying the "deep past" we can be optimistic about the future. But remember that the tale of the Archons were meant to be taken as a lesson for us now.

Dec 14, 2018

uLisp 0.8b Maintenance

This release adds the syntactic extension facility, expand-syntax.

Aug 23, 2018

Lee Stranahan: Red Alert

"Red Alert: How you can end the witch hunt."
This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLfLszi6hME

Aug 9, 2018

The Heart and Alternative Realities

Over a period of years, I tried to read everything Hermann Hesse and Philip Dick published. I've read Hesse's "Narcissus and Goldmoud" and Philip Dick's "Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep" at least twice. The world created in these novels had me totally absorded when I read them.

Over many years, I've wondered why I could never understand Hesse's "Magister Ludi", or Philip Dick's "Exegesis". It's said that these works, written during the late careers of these authors, were a synopsis of their lifetime's study.

I think Hesse, who was pure genius in producing Siddhartha, really struggled to find an intellectual or rational basis for human ideals in writing Magister Ludi. And Philip Dick's lengthy work, Exegesis, was a monumental battle to explain and understand what he perceived as real.

Over the years, I've wondered if I myself could find some reasonable worldview which would be fullfiling, and hopefully inspirational. For sure, what is inspirational is that these authors kept trying to find an explanation to their life's study. Their earlier works were brilliant artistic creations which for me had a basis for closure. Their last works, however, were open ended.

Somehow, and I still don't understand clearly myself, is that their later works feels closer to my heart. Is it because I like some mystery to a great search .... a quest? It is because an absolute, final answer would be against our instinct to hope? Or is it because they accepted fully their humanity or human condition to try?

Jul 24, 2018

Lee Stranahan

The video link below was downloaded from You-Tube. It's posted just in the case you missed it.


This is the You-Tube link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-d7Jt9CHww

Revised Jul 23, 2018
Jul 22, 2018

Computer Security: Just My 2-Bits on a Sensitive Matter

My impression after reading the 29 page DOJ-Indictment of the 12 Russian GRU officers signed by Robert Mueller, dated July 13, 2018, is its opacity because it is very hard to know what happened after a security breach. This indictment does not give definitive proof that "DCLeaks" or "Gucifier 2.0" were the criminals who penetrated the DNC servers. In my opinion, catching a good "hacker" after the crime was committed is unlikely. You would have to get a detailed record or log of the network activity tracing the routes of the source and targeted DNC server at the time the crime was being committed.

My thoughts and feelings, as I was reading the DOJ-Indictment, was that this type of violation should never have happened if mindful, simple computer security procedures were followed. The real failure, and fault for these security breaches should rest on those who managed or administered the DNC servers. The reason for this, in my opinion, is the enormous complexity or impossibility of determining what occurred once the computers were penetrated. Actually, from my experience using computers, it is easy to erase or modify self-logging mechanisms on a computer once you have access to it.

Regardless of the political reasons justifying the production of this DOJ-Indictment, it's important from a computer security perspective to adjudicate this indictment in court. Both the USA and Russia would benefit from studying the detailed processes underlying computer security for international law enforcement. For example, the use of "bitcoin" or crypto-currencies for exchanging money between countries as detailed in "COUNT TEN" of the DOJ-Indictment is essential for economic trust between foreign banks. Trust between US and Russia will improve if US and Russian computer security forces work cooperatively together in the future.

Jul 9, 2018

Change to mLisp

I'm replacing the mLisp derived from David Betz's xscheme-0.28 to that derived from xlisp-1.7. It's easier to understand the C-code without the bytecode compiler which xlisp-1.7 does not have. I like the elegant simplicity of xlisp-1.7.

Apologize for not creating a compiler for mLisp.

Mar 17, 2017


"We were brothers in the war. It was necessary then."

I've found my best and long-lasting friends within the realm of mortal danger. Sometimes, hardship brings out the most noble behavior in some people. Hardship makes us compassionate and tolerant. What's really interesting about this to me is how comradeship born out of necessity, makes us love each other in an unquestioning way. To question is being critical and disloyal.

However, an enlightened person might understand that being critical of one another in a time of survival hardship is not equivalent to a lack of love. But it can seem this way to most people. We all need to be loved so much.

Ironically, in a group where I need to be accepted, I fail many times to be as aware as I can about what it means to really love each other.

Dec 23, 2016

My View of Software Development

The software world is developing at an exponential rate. This comes with an exponential increase in complexity. I've never had any formal training in computer software except my self-study in Lisp. I started by working on operating system software way back in the days when the DEC macro-11 was popular. This was before the C language was invented in the mid 1970's. So when I started using the C language in 1979, I found I was able to write software within a few hours of reading the "white" K&R (Kernighan and Ritchie) C-book. C is in essence a simple language.

Now, I think it's really changed. I can't imagine writing useful programs in Rust on the first day of learning it. And I've written some Ruby programs before. I think it would take me a year to learn Rust to a sufficient level to write useful programs. I think that's because Rust does so much optimizations.

Lisp, unlike C, is a high-level language, and hence can take a while to learn well too.

What's really interesting about my journey through using software languages is how different people adapt to learning the language. For me, I use software that I intuitively like. That's really subjective. And every programmer has his or her views on a language which affects his efficiency in using the language. How the syntax and structure of the computer language sinks into the inner psyche of a programmer is essential in how the programmer produces his software, or expresses his ideas through the software language.

In a large programming effort requiring a team, the individual, expressive programmer must conform to a standard set of production requirements which includes his choice of a language. Most of the time this comes down to how you can socialize with other programmers. However. if you don't like the language, you're not going to do your best work ... your best work meaning you spent every waking minute which is directed to your work thinking about the problems in the software language. And this is why large programming teams are so inefficient. They don't have the freedom to express themselves. This is sort of analogous to all disciplines in general.

Nov 9, 2016

A New Day

I'm really proud of our country for the selection of our new president. And we should also be grateful to the rebel, Julian Assange, who made this selection possible. Julian Assange has been isolated in the Equadorian Embassey in London for 4 years now. I hope he can be free soon for he is a genuine patriot in the Thomas Jeffersonian sense who wrote years ago, "Rebellion to tyrants is obedience to God."

Oct 23, 2016

A Clear and Present Danger

"But I do ask every publisher, every editor, and every newsman in the nation to reexamine his own standards, and to recognize the nature of our country's peril."

"In time of 'clear and present danger,' the courts have held that even the priviledged rights of the First Amendment must yeild to the public's need for national security. Today no war has been declared; and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack. Those who make themselves our enemy are advancing around the globe. The survival of our friends is in danger. And yet no war has been declared, no borders have been crossed by marching troops, no missiles have been fired. If the press is awaiting a declaration of war before it imposes the self-discipline of combat conditions, then I can only say that no war ever posed a greater threat to our secuity."

"If you are awaiting a finding of 'clear and present danger,' then I can only say that the danger has never been more clear and its presence has never been more imminent."

--- excerpt from John F. Kennedy's "Secret Societies" speech

Oct 23, 2016

Trust and Freedom

Politics in America has distorted the current moral reality of its citizens. Misdirected use of finanical power has greatly weaken the economic and political state of our country. We are currently headed for war with Russia because of the unstable state or condition in our economy, and the immoral character of our top leaders in the Whitehouse.

FBI directory Comey failed to uphold justice in prosecuting Hillary Clinton's security violations. The consequence may lead to a moral collapse of our intelligence agencies. I'm sure we're very proud of the CIA. But I'm beginning to the see the day when we could possibly equate the work of the CIA with what the KGB did in the 1950's.

Overt secrecy in government is weakness. As politically powerful as the KGB was made to be in the 1950's, the Soviet Union collapsed 30 years later. If we continue to fail in upholding justice, our government will collapse within the next generation.

Our strength in any endeavor depends on trust. Now, it's critical that all parts of our US state and federal agencies uphold justice to the highest degree possible. This is done by all the individuals in these agencies being as open and honest as they can be ... everyday, every minute. The price of Freedom is not free.

Oct 14, 2016

Our Country is in Serious Trouble

It's hard to believe this news item appeared today.

Vice President Joe Biden told "Meet the Press" moderator Chuck Todd on Friday that "we're sending a message" to Putin and that "it will be at the time of our choosing, and under the circumstances that will have the greatest impact." When asked if the American public will know a message was sent, the vice president replied, "Hope not."
The statement above is in relation to a possible CIA cyber strike against Russia in retaliation for "alleged" Russian interference in the American presidential election.

It's heartbreaking to see how insane the politicians (and gravelling underlings surrounding them) in the Whitehouse have become. What's happening to the CIA! They should know better as the CIA have some of the best firewall technology and experts in the universe. They should defend justice in a way they are most able ... by, in this case, helping to protect US computer systems. Not in an insanely offensive way against a sovereign foreign country. It really saddens me to think the CIA with its many good people would be called upon to do so much evil. Is our country that weak? Wake up!

I've always turned away from commenting on politics, but now face this haunting quote: "... first they came for my friends and I did not speak ..."

July 2, 2016

The Unknown

... (the spiritual teachers of the Upanishads) showed to their pupils that the light of Knowledge was meant only to make "darkness visible". With the awareness of "darkness made visible", through the processes of knowledge, these pupils were inspired to undertake the adventurous journey into the land of the Unknown where alone Wisdom can be discovered. This journey has to be unaided, for no teacher can lead a pupil into the realms of the Unknown. The journey to the Unknown is a flight of the alone to the Alone.

by Rohit Mehta,    Call of the Upanishads
Motilal Banarsidass Publishers, Delhi, 1970

I had a vivid dream recently where I was visiting a Tibetan monastary in Nepal. These kinds of dreams for me have a really profound mystical feeling. It usually involves viewing the landscape I'm visiting from the sky where I'm flying. In this dream I felt extreme fear of the forest surrounding the monastary. I had a real sense of my own pending death. Then a white cloud embraced me, and gently dropped me back on my own bed.

I know the fear I felt in this dream is from my past experiences travelling in strange places. When I travel alone I go to the extreme in embracing the unknown. I don't plan anything. I just try to let things happen on their own. But this kind of travelling invokes a lot of fear in me. It's taken years for me to start thinking about another journey.

In my next journey, I'd like to keep asking the question, "What kind of consciousness or awareness is there outside of the brain?" This question takes on different aspects depending on what kind of living life forms on earth I include which have a functioning nervous system. I know I have to try to find answers by including all life forms, but getting interpretations from human beings. I know this sounds really strange, but that's the best way I know how to put it. I'm at the edge of my limitations ... on a journey in which I meet myself at the end.

But for now, like the past few months, I spend lots of my time doing landscape gardening. The sunrise is my favorite time of day.

Jan 16, 2016

The Song of Our Lord

I spent much of last year trying to resolve a paradox. It is sort of amusing how what I think is paradoxical traps me. Maybe some alien being would strug, thinking what mis-directed energy I'm expending.

Actually, I guess this would not be paradoxical to a machine. Okay, maybe now I can explain it.

Years ago, I would never have dreamt of encountering the struggle with the concept of "non-dualism" I'm undergoing now. Spinoza smile on me. I would have neatly compartmented away my uneasy sense of the separateness of mechanistic forces and human psychic forces. I think most "modern western thinkers" separate the physical and spiritual. For some reason, it's not in my nature to do so.

Maybe it's my previous experience with eastern mysticism. Some really intensive study on Hindu and Buddhist mysticism years ago has deeply shaped my psyche. I still read the stuff of Hindu sages, especially Swami Sivananda.

In the Hindu epic, the Bhagavad Gita (the Song of Our Lord), the embodiment of love, Lord Krishna extolls the classical Vedic teachings on the value of self-realization through love. The Gita is not a "western" text reflecting linear thinking. The Gita are poems or songs about living a practical life which is allegorical with much symbolism and metaphors necessarily consistent only with respect to the human psyche. Lord Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita is the god of love. Like the Upanishads, the Gita usually places me in wonderment. On these two texts each day I meditate.

I've always sense an enormous pull ... a mystical attraction to a kind of spiritual reality prominant in far eastern lands, especially in the Hindu kind of psyche.

The genius of human psyche, Karl Jung, wrote about the synchronous relationship between causal events in dreams. Dreams are more allegorical where the mind works overtime on symbolism. The psyche is not the prisoner of logic and strict causality. As in love, the psyche gets directly down to the business of really defining the self. Karl Jung describes a case of "exaggerated rationalism" or logic with respect to one of his patients who couldn't continue treatment until she could get pass her deductive thoughts. Jung basis his ideas about the fundamentals of dreams on synchronicity, and writes about this in his encounter with the golden scarab.

Swami Sivananda in the classical Vedic tradition says "Mind precedes Matter, ...". I wonder if I'll ever get to that place Swami Sivananda felt and knew as that is really a similar side of mechanistic non-duality.

A long time ago, a Shingon buddhist monk and I sat alone. He talked about a universal love that does not differentiate human separateness. I thought how is it possible for me to know this love. At that time, I had no clue how this was possible. It was not something inside of me. But nowadays, I think I sometimes sense it. You see, you cannot understand this love with your mind. You can only feel it in your heart. It might have come to me through years of simple experience. The scriptures say you're more likely to find this blessing if you try to purify yourself daily.

Following strict non-duality is too limiting ... too mechanical. It constricts your growth. I know or understand, that on one level, the world is purely mechanistic. But that's not the limit of my universe.

"I am the Self, dwelling in the heart of all beings." -- Lord Krishna, The Bhagavad Gita