Rock Garden, Ryoan-ji: japan-guide.com
The time from when I wrote this 6 months ago till now is a blank.
I guess I was depressed.
The shock of war really had me down. Once, I used to work in an
environment where I had to think about war all day long. I paid a
price for that. Nothing good about it because it's a sickness that
still haunts me. I'm going to revise this soon.
Swami Sivananda's Conception
The mind is insentient (Jada), but it appears as consciousness (Chaitanya),
by borrowing the light from the void (Adhishthana). Consciousnes (Atman),
emerges as heat in the water which has been exposed to the sun. Because
there is reflection of intelligence in the mind from the background, the
source or womb for this mind, this insentient mind appears as intelligent.
This is the real truth. This is the bold, genuine philosophy fo the Hindu
sages of yore. 
What first impressed me about the contents in Hindu scriptures was its
insights into psychology. For example, the Hindu sages taught their
pupils according to their personalities or personas. The spiritual path
or way was classified as yoga of jnana (mind), bhakti (heart), and karma
(action). A student's path could depend on written words in scriptures,
pictures of saints, chanting of mantras, and other mechanism of
A person is multi-dimensional, and unique.
Swami Sivananda, like Ramana Maharshi or Swami Yogananda, was a classical
Hindu in the Adviata Vedanta tradition. So I've always thought it important
to understand what Swami Sivananda thought about the origin of consciousness.
Adviata Vedanta unifies the conception of the physical and spiritual (mind)
realm. For me, this makes it easier to understand my state of awareness
and how I perceive the world within this framework.
So I've always wondered whether consciousness, according to Swami Sivananda,
arises out of the material brain, or originates from a substratum
existing outside of the brain. 
It's strange, that as I write this page, the specter of what happened
last Jan 3, 2020 when the US assassinated General Soleimani still looms in my
psyche. I want to let it all go. But this tragic event has raised all sorts
of doubts in me. It has reminded me of how fragile my world is, and
how much I depend on the goodness of the blessed people in my past.
I realize that if our country continues on its current path which led to
Jan 3, 2020, then chaos will reign in our country. In Greek mythology,
the daughter of the gods of chaos, Nemesis is the goddess of justice
and fate. The Hindu goddess of time, Kali, performs the same tasks
as Nemesis. Kali brings order back into our universe which originates
out of the void; the void in modern physics being the place of highest
entropy or disorder. In Egyptian mythology, Isis is the goddess identified
with the void or the netherworld. Isis is the archetype of Kali.
There is a kind of perfection in the physical universe which can be
applied to the world of human action or karma. In a sense, what happened
on Jan 3, 2020 is part of the perfection. 
It seems as if there's a kind of universe law which tells me that America
will inevitably be isolated by the rest of the world forcing our country
to change its violent behavior. Our country will collapse, not as a result
of economic depression although this may be the start of it, but from a
moral decline in spiritual or compassionate awareness.
Our awareness or consciousness arises out of our mechanical brain. But
this awareness is formed by our experiences. Our profound consciousness
is, in part, formed by our childhood experiences. Our childhood teachers
forms the deepest part of our consciousness. According to modern science,
this is the canonical script of neurobiology.
 This paragraph is paraphrase from "Conquest of the Mind",
by Swami Sivananda, published by the Divine Life Society,
First Edition 1962, Uttarakhand, Himalayas, India
 I tend to think of consciousness as emerging from the biological
brain. But I think exploring the realm of Swami Sivananda's conception
of consciousness can lead to a treasure of spiritually lighted
knowledge. When I was young, I naively pursued the quest of finding the
answer to the question of the existence of God. That's the quest that
almost killed me. I'm always inspired by the Upanishads. The Katha
Upanishad tells the story of Nachiketa, a young boy's quest for
spiritual knowledge. This story tells me that I too will probably go
no further than Nackiketa in a spiritual quest. This is a divine
truth. Imagine, the Katha Upanishad was written 2500 years ago.
I feel I can get to that place where Swami Sivananda thought about
consciousness. I really want to experience Swami Sivananda's vision of
consciousness. I thinks this is possible for me, and people living
today who see the world as a "Kantian" mechanist. I'm not saying that the
Kantian mechanist is wrong. I'm pretty sure consciousness arises out of
the biological brain. But there's a realm of the heart or spirit beyond
the mechanical mind which I've accepted on faith.
 Some Hindu sages have said that there's only perfection in God's
universe. But how can this "perfection" be applied to the human condition
since there seems to be so much suffering. In the physical world, order
emerges from disorder. So if you applied this principle to the human
condition, then it may necessarily follow that the suffering that emerges
from chaos must exist. It's necessarily a part of the perfection.
But not all suffering must exist because we can overcome suffering
by the will or intent in our hearts. Human beings determine their destiny.